Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Difficult times are good for something

Its been a long time since I've posted here, and I'm not sure that anyone even reads this anymore.

Whatever the case maybe, there is something to be said about the therapeutic quality of sharing; even if it is to the great big quiet, to the humming web, the network of machines and the people that are slave to them.

I am constantly thinking of escape; of running away, of fleeing from the now, of abandoning my life and immersing myself in some foreign culture, of forgetting my name and my identity; I am constantly thinking of what it would feel like to disappear, to fade into a sea of faces and to just become another number.
This is perhaps how I get by. As I travel and struggle through the mental toil of trying to complete my PhD I experience moments in which I become small and insignificant compared to the incessant roar of life and economics.

On a train to Dwingeloo, yes there is such a place - I'm noone.

On a flight from Accra, I'm returning to nothing, from nothing, a child of in-betweens.



On a bus-ride to the rural border; life and the future is out of my hands. I am this person who tries as much as possible to embrace the future and to shape his own destiny, but I'm also aware that perhaps, in the greater scale of things, I am just the result of innumerable cosmic accidents.